Wednesday, January 18, 2017

Surgery Update

January 18, 2017

We are now 4 days away from leaving on our much anticipated trip to DISNEY! The excitement in this house has been at an all time high and as Ben puts it, "Amy has had outbursts of excitement daily!" (He's totally right!) It the midst of all the crazy news in his household the past few months this trip certainly has given us so much to look forward to! I'm not sure what I'm going to do with my spare time when it's done!

Last week Ben and I went up to Hamilton for an appointment for genetic testing. Since this type of cancer doesn't run in his family, and he's only 30, they want to see if Ben carries the gene which would help with the future of our kids and his family members. He went off for blood work and we will wait for these results to come. On our way home from Hamilton we received a call from the surgeons office who asked if we could come to her office today, January 18th. This has been an appointment we've been very anxious for.

Our meeting went really well. The surgeon took her time with us and explained everything to us in great detail. This is what we are faced with now...

When we return from Florida Ben will be admitted to hospital for a procedure called a portal vein embolization. This procedure will clip a vein to induce regrowth on the left side of his liver for his planned liver resection to the right side. Basically enlarging the liver to help with the surgery. Ben will have to wait 3-4 weeks after this procedure for a scan where they look to ensure the liver was successfully enlarged safely for surgery. If the embolization was successful, liver resection will take place. During this waiting period Ben will most likely receive radiation for the cancer on the primary site, his colon. This will be to hopefully contain the cancer to his colon so they are able to deal with the liver first. Removing the cancer from his liver is most important so Ben doesn't go into liver failure or the cancer doesn't spread to other organs. Because of the amount of cancer in Ben's liver they will remove 75% of his liver, which is the most you can remove during a liver resection. Ben will be in hospital for 10-12 days as they monitor him in recovery and ensure his liver function studies improve. It takes 2-3 weeks for the liver to improve, or show any signs of liver failure, which we obviously pray will not happen. An MRI will be done about 2-3 weeks after the resection to assess his liver. At this point if everything looks good, Ben can wait up to 2 months to proceed with surgery for removal of the tumour in his colon. At this point if they get everything any recurrence would likely happen within the first 2 years.

This all sounds great right? I mean, at the beginning of this journey Ben didn't qualify for surgery at all, there was too much cancer and now only 6 months after being told that devastating news we are being faced with these next steps. We are nervous but we are hopeful! This does, however, come with a lot of anxiety and a lot of unknowns. This whole procedure is very aggressive and really our only next option. We've been told that if cancer does return to his liver that they cannot perform another surgery. Letting all of this information sink in today has been a bit challenging for me. I'm not sure what I was anticipating... I guess you want to hear the words "lets do surgery and cure you", but of course it's not that easy. We have a long road ahead of us yet. Months of surgeries and appointments. One thing is for sure, God has brought us this far. 6 months ago being told my husband had 2-3 years to live with no chance for surgery, and now planning this surgery is surreal. And totally God's doing. I don't doubt that for one second. We continue on our faith journey with God and pray that God lays his hands on Ben and heals him. We pray all of this is successful and our God continues to help us through this. We don't know what the next few months will look like but I am certainly glad to have God on our side, comforting us and with us through it all.  

We are prepared to enjoy this coming week at Disney with our girls and our parents where we can laugh and have fun and enjoy the time together before diving into these next steps. I continue to be overwhelmed and thankful for this trip. It certainly comes at a great time for us.

As always, we continue to ask for prayer for Ben. As mentioned many times in this blog, we know what the power of prayer can do and we continue to pray hard that Ben can continue on with life healthy, happy, with his two beautiful baby girls and watch him rise above and beat this with the power and love of our God.




Sunday, January 1, 2017

Welcome 2017!

January 1, 2017

HAPPY NEW YEAR! And boy am I happy for a new year. I can only pray that it is a little easier on us than 2016. I've been reading a lot of peoples reflections on 2016 as they welcome the New Year and to be honest, I don't even know where to begin with reflecting on the year. See the thing is, this time last year we were closing on our old home, celebrating the New Year quietly at home saying to each other, "this is our year! we'll move into our new house with the girls and this will be the best year yet!"... well, as all of you know, 2016 may not have been our year. But 2016 has taught me a lot.

This year I have learned the true meaning of gratitude. Never in my life have I experienced gratitude the way I have this past year. From the minute Ben was diagnosed the outpour of support that has come in many different ways has been a true blessing to our family. We have said it before and we continue to say, THANK YOU! We thank everyone who has helped our family this year because without you we would not be able to get through this experience. You all have made this so much easier on us to not worry or stress about the little things, and believe me at the beginning  the little things felt like big things! We have been able to focus on our family and the time together without panic. We are truly grateful!

I have also learned what a deep relationship and faith in our God feels like. There are days I cry to my Father asking for Him to help me or asking Him to help Ben. But there are also days I smile, acknowledging His work in our lives and how He has placed people/things in our lives so perfectly. It's amazing how things always seem to work out just so, even though we aren't sure at the time why things are going the way they are going. We tend to look back and see God in our lives. For example, the day Ben was diagnosed. The people who were with him in the ER, friends and friends of friends working at the hospital who knew Ben. Looking back it's amazing to see how God truly has been with us the entire time.

I don't want to look back and list all the things that made this year hard for us. I will, however, try and remember the good things and the things that make us who we are today. As Ben always says, "mind over matter". And he is right!

With a brand new year ahead of us we have some very exciting news to share! (Yes, finally some exciting news!)

Back in October Ben and I had planned an evening out to visit our close friends. My parents came by to watch the girls. As we were getting ready to leave I remember vividly making the comment to my parents, "somehow... someway... we need to get to Disney with the girls. This would be my dream to do this with Ben". We headed out for the evening and hung out with our friends only to be completely throw off with "hey guys, we've done a little fundraiser for you and we have enough for your family to go on vacation." Well, this sure put a smile on our faces! "You guys have enough for a week vacation with the girls to DISNEY!!." *insert tears of joy* !!!! We were shocked! and SO excited! I couldn't believe, and still can't believe, that just a few hours earlier I had made that comment to my parents and then here we were being told we are heading to Disney with the girls! Here is another example of where I saw God. Unbelievable!! I don't think there is anyway we can truly thank those who have made this trip possible for us. We are over the moon to be able to go. What you might not know is that this trip has also brought a lot of joy through the planning stages. Where anxiety seemed to be controlling me, this trip came up and it has been something that brings pure joy and something we can truly look forward to, rather than dreading the unknown. This trip has brought a huge amount of excitement in our home! so, THANK YOU! Every single one of you, THANK YOU!

So, the countdown is officially on! We leave at the end of January for a week and both of our parents will be joining us to help with the girls. We are very excited to be able to do this trip with them. Thanks to our good friends, and their helpful experiences with Disney, we've made an itinerary and this mom has spent hours planning a trip and has enjoyed every minute of it! We've rented Ben a motorized scooter for the days that may be more challenging for him but pray he will have an awesome week. He will be skipping chemo treatment the week before we leave so that we aren't dealing with the side effects chemotherapy brings during the trip. Despite a crazy last year, this is the best thing to start off 2017 and we cannot wait to share our experience with you!  THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!!!!!

Brooke and her Disney countdown!



We wish everyone a very Happy New Year filled with much happiness and good health!

"For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." - Jeremiah 29:11